I defend
My breath goes somewhere out of reach
I speak
My justification of actions are lost on the beach
I hope
Scanning amongst the pebbles beneath my feet
I feel
A sense of despair and fear seem to meet
I'm quiet
As I watch it all play out before me
I'm drifting
Away from reality that we are here again I plea
Not again
Not now, not when things are lighter
Please no
Please see that they are brighter
I've changed
Please see me for the person I am here before you today
I really have
Why don't you see the new me, I try to convey
I see you
The bright beacons you are
I hear you
Respect every word you say, but you set the bar
I don't know
Where that bar is
How far?
How high? How big? How small? If it's even there I quiz?
But why?
Says my inner child
Am I
Meek or mild?
I retreat
I pull away yonder
I'm silent
I stare with my eyes deep in wonder
I'm lost
Yet feel so free
Why?
Can't you see
Me
